Today you feel OK

Maybe it’s because of last night’s dinner with lovely friends. Maybe it’s because you woke up with less body pain. Or maybe it’s because the sun is shining and the tree outside your window swings, come. You don’t ignore it, no, this morning you rush the hygiene routine. 

Now you’re waving to the nice neighbor, the one who cares for your plants. She cares about you too. So what she really wants to know is why you’re outside with that medical boot again, you should be resting. Then there’s a pep talk about your ankle’s recovery and a don’t deprive yourself from the coffee shop owner. All of this makes you feel supported by the entire world in just one block. Perhaps that’s what’s bundling this good feeling inside. That, and how when you get back, you speak briefly with your family and everyone is clear. They understand you and you understand them. A much-needed reunion is set for tomorrow. 

Somehow today you’re in a kind of harmony with yourself. You feel capable of holding this awareness of the nightmareworld. You even listen to yourself in this peaceful moment and put it down. You know it won’t last long. The wordless helplessness hopelessness comes on just as suddenly. But now you have a thing to look back on to remind you there are plenty of strings pulling you out of the sinkhole of your ‘self’. You’ll recover faster. And you’ll be fine strong string on someone else’s good day.